A school project for which I had to study modern art and use it as an influence to recreate older work.
I chose George Grosz and August Macke from the expressionism and dadaism movements as my main inspiration.
I tried to capture a moment that I wanted to remember
In my 5th and 6th year in high school I had a huge crush on a girl.
In those two years I tried to gain her attention, but premature as I was, I tried to present myself as someone who would really fit her.
And although she seemed to like me as a person, she saw right through me, which in the end led to nothing.
Now many years later, I look back at that experience as a well thought lesson in self value.
And although I don't really feel the same way about the girl anymore, it is still hard to talk to her on few occasions.
So at a high school reunion, where I got pretty wasted beforehand, I talked to her again. And she had this painfull
almost caring expression on her face, like saying 'why even...'. That's the only thing about that night that stuck to me.
I don't really remember much of what I've said to her, but just talking to her must have surfaced some old feelings that I had towards her.
Anyways... I've put as much of that expression and the feeling it gave me, as I can into this painting.
Hope you enjoy!
Also this song complements the image really well:www.youtube.com/watch?v=andNXb…
Done with soft pastels